*Food *Spirituality *Intuition - You can’t force the Force!
I’m getting ready to go to Phuket on 11th April. I booked in November when it looked like Covid was calming down. Now it is bloody everywhere. I had to buy new swim suits as I have put on so much weight. Now 96kg. I am beyond frustrated with myself!
As well as swimsuit shopping I have been trying to have everyone avoid Covid. I sway between spiritual trust that all will be fine and that I am protected and supported; and OMG Timothy wash your bloody hands! Recently the latter has been winning.
The other day I was preaching to Tim “When you are at school please stay away from people; please wash your hands thoroughly when in bathroom; don’t drink from bubbler; we don’t want to get sick before our flight” etc. etc Tim was sick of hearing it as I have been like a broken record. He turned to me and said “Um, isn’t what you are saying bringing it towards us?” Jason giggled and said “Are you preaching to your mother about The Law of Attraction?” I laughed briefly then turned serious and said in a fairly forceful pointed manner “Yes, you are right, I have thought about that, but I don’t care…. wash your bloody hands”. Living in two worlds isn’t easy sometimes.
Now back to food. I’m getting really frustrated with myself. I often start out well only to end up with my head in Tim’s school snack draw (the bain of my existence). I start days again and again and end up in the same place. The other evening I was laying in the blow up spa and thinking about this. I had a series of thoughts. The first was me thinking “You have failed with your project because you can’t master one of the 10 points of change that this whole blog is about, you can’t master food”. Then I had a new thought: “Do you think you would have got this far only to fail now? Do you not think that this is just part of the story?”
It took me a little by surprise. So I then asked the Universe to show me the way out of the dilemma. I went upstairs and things happened really quickly. I dried myself off and decided to pull a card. I drew card 31 from Alana Fairchild Kali Oracle. I have quoted the relevant parts:
“Wild black Chamunda is a ferocious warrior goddess….. Her presence indicates that you shall not only overcome an obstacle but gain complete mastery over the energies that gave rise to it. You shall never be troubled by it again….. Despite her inherent drama and intensity. Chamunda is beloved by the heroic heart. She assists us when we need to find the strength to overcome our psychological limitations and inertia to access, integrate and sustain higher frequency states of being. Bringing about a permanent structural change of the psyche is hard work. It requires commitment. However, bullying ourselves into being different or applying more and more willpower, only tends to create resistance, adverse reactions and exhaustion! It is more a case of applying wisdom, finding the balance between persistence, determination and compassionate rest and release, so we can integrate and rebuild from within….. Mastering the balance to nudge ourselves forward on our path and facilitate change, but not so much that we feel defeated even before we gain traction, is advanced inner work. Chamunda is the power to accomplish it. Her presence in a reading is a portent of a truly exceptional breakthrough on your path…”
I was excited by this revelation as I lay down to sleep. I could not sleep. I decided to flick onto the series I am watching on Gaia “Rewired by Joe Dispenza”. When I had stopped watching last time, I was somewhere near the end of Episode 7 “The Healing Power of Alignment” and it jumped straight in:
“So then in order for you to literally move your body out of the past and into the present you are going to have to change your energy and I can tell you from doing this for so many years I now know that no body changes until they change their energy. And when they change their energy they change their life.”
“So then how then do we get thought to begin to influence our body? Really simple! You will only accept, believe and surrender to the thoughts equal to your emotional state and you will not accept, believe and surrender to any thoughts that are not equal to your emotional state.”
“So then, it makes sense then that if you begin to change your emotional state and, instead of surrendering to fear start surrendering to love or gratitude and think about the emotional signature of gratitude……... If they’re in a state of gratitude and they are in a state of receiving …… they will begin to program their autonomic nervous system into a whole new destiny.”
The Universe was laying it all out for me and this is how I surmise it:
a) I’m going to change, don’t worry it is a given!
b) You can’t force change by forcing yourself out of the problem and berating yourself when you fail!
c) You need to be in alignment with a higher frequency to bring about change!
d) Take your attention off the problem and put it on the higher frequency!
e) Gratitude is the higher frequency!
Ok Ok Ok, I knew I was close. I turned off the programme and was thinking of the easiest way of thinking about having more Gratitude in my life. I went to YouTube and did a search. I came across a sleep meditation: “30 Days of Gratitude – Sleep Meditation – Create Miralces in Your Life” by Dauchsy and another meditation that I will do in the mornings: “Magnetize Miracles Instantly / Gratitude Meditation to Shift Your Reality” by Mary Kate. I’m seeing a pattern here! The book I was previously guided to (previous post) “God Can Do It Again” was all about Miracles. Now I’m guided to Gratitude Meditations that are all about Miracles!!
I shall listen daily, and will continue to do so, and graciously await the Miracle of not wanting to inhale every chip, lollie or ice-cream I see or know about!
And so the journey continues.