*Purpose *Spirituality *Intuition *Support *Shadow Work - Numerology, Jesus, Prayer and other stuff

It’s been a wild ride recently! I had so much to tell Kate (Reiki), Michelle (Kinesiologist) and Kristine. I turned up at Michelle’s and my brain was focussed on the things I had to share. I’m surprised I could even gather the focus to get my brain to tell my body to walk… I was so excited about the happenings. Michelle lives in a set of managed townhouses. The gardens and pool are always pristine. For the first time, I saw the gardening guy doing his thing. He was working on a very large shrub and was using a small chain saw looking thing to cut off the outer inch of regrowth.

I’m a fairly chatty person, I always like to say hello. Unfortunately, on this day, with my concentration elsewhere, my mind didn’t properly engage before opening my mouth. As I approached I sort of yelled out “hellooo, I can see you are shaving the bush”.

The guy burst out laughing as did I. It was absolutely innocent but hey, at least he had a laugh.

Michelle was wondering why I was choking with laughter as I walked in her door and appreciated the explanation greatly.

Michelle’s technique is so broad, at first I thought it was just working with foods, to release allergy energies. I now know it is much broader and we have been working on things like power; letting go; self sabotage and receiving. It is an ongoing process but so very rewarding.

In the last month I have been receiving lots of communication from spirit. They never take me where I expect. About a month ago I woke up around 3am with message “Look up prayer meditation!”. I ignored it and went back to sleep. Another hour later I woke up again with the same message. So I lay there, in the early hours, flicking through YouTube for “prayer meditation”.

It was all so religious, one thing that makes me uncomfortable, even cranky. God is not restricted to one religion! I was scrolling and scrolling, asking “What am I looking for?” when all of a sudden it jumped out at me. The picture looked familiar. A quick check confirmed it. The picture was the same as I have on this blog. My very first blog image. I started watching the clip and the second image came up. A dandelion seed. This is the way a dear friend, who has passed, communicates with me.

And so I listened. It was a 7 minute healing prayer where you are praying to Jesus. I knew it was a message but it still made me uncomfortable. I know prayer is powerful. It doesn’t surprise me that most prayers online, or anywhere for that matter, would be praying based on religious beliefs. I was still a little uncomfortable.

Kate and I discussed my resistance a few days later. Any resistance is an indication that you need to do work on that area. I now understand that Jesus is part of the big picture. As are other masters living and dead, in other religions or not.

I now do the prayer usually daily. One section gets you to breathe in healing and breath out your condition, imagining it leaving your body. My mind went straight to the huge dude in The Green Mile and so I visualised lots of tiny flies exiting my mouth being Scleroderma.

I had been working on being more comfortable with the concept on Jesus. Not the limiting one as the only way, but as part of the big picture. With this in my consciousness I attended another retreat. Before my second sitting I asked spirit “What will tonight be about?” and I drew a card from around 7 decks that a fellow attendee had brought along. The card was Abuela Medicine - Remedy of the Grandmothers from the Alana Fairchild Earth Warriors Oracle. The card states:

“You are on a healing journey. Put your trust in the divine genius of Great Spirit and the medicine of the earth, through which divine healing can express itself. As you allow your spiritual connections to guide your earthly steps, with synchronicity and divine intervention, you will be supported for a healing journey that will be profound for you. This oracle indicates a healing outcome that will enhance your soul journey. Your soul has healing gifts, and you are meant to participate fully in an exploration of healing that is of interest to you. You are meant to understand how it is that you are a healer in your own unique way (whether that be professionally or in how you are as a person in the world more generally), as part of your life journey…..”

Well, you could have blown me over with a feather. It is exactly what I am doing here!

During the retreat I saw a problem that I had been thinking about get blown away like it was nothing. I saw the last bits of my control issues being resolved and I saw a giant gold crucifix with lots of energy around it. I knew Jesus was with me. It was confronting but also beautiful. I received a message from Jesus (well, the message came while I was seeing the crucifix so I’m just assuming Jesus here). The message is personal but did disturb me a little. Upon my return from the retreat I spoke with Kate in detail about things that came up and she channelled further while doing Reiki. I received more clarity and peace.

I did say to Kate that my condition had not yet changed but then I mentioned that I had a thought that I was at the end of a 9 year cycle but couldn’t work out the cycles as they didn’t match my age.

I had been told about the cycles when all this first started in 2013. I took the information in, but kind of dismissed it later as possibly incorrect, as the 9 year cycle didn’t match the year I was in at the time ie 2013 and being nearly 42. I’m no mathematician but can work out that 42 doesn’t neatly divide by 9.

Kate advised me that I had it slightly wrong. The first cycle doesn’t necessarily start at 1, it starts at whatever your life path number is. I did mine in an excel spreadsheet to show you (ok ok, well I am a Bookkeeper)

It all now fits perfectly. I started having experiences and writing shortly before my 42nd birthday in 2013 I think it was around September or October of 2013. November 2013 - November 2014 was Year 1 of this cycle.

I am now in Year 9 of this cycle (the ending) ie November 2021 - November 2022. All the feelings of finalisation and ending are now coming together and making sense.

As I type this my wrists are hurting and fingers are really stiff from Scleroderma. Still no evidence but I know I am moving in the right direction.

And so I keep going