*Shadow Work *Spirituality - Bear or Fish…Be a Fish

As I write this today we have now ended mask restrictions in NSW. It is a good day indeed. No more forgetting masks while out shopping, only to have to use one from the car floor that has a 14 year olds footprint on it. Things are looking up!

It has been quite a week, as well as the 22/2 sound healing meditation I had a meditation with Kris on 20th; a Reiki session with Kate on 23rd and a Kinesiology session with Michelle on 24th. I’m not normally that busy. It must have just been the right time for it all.

I thought, in my session with Kate, that not much would come up. Kate does Reiki and gets messages from Spirit. I was feeling pretty great, after the previous evening’s sound healing session. Alas spirit did come through and kicked my bum again.

During the session I saw two things in my minds eye (I don’t see much this way, generally only when spirit want to communicate). I saw the number 13 positioned bottom right. It was gold and in script writing. I have no idea what that means. I also saw, right in the centre of my mind, as if starting at me, an angry animals eyes. I tried, but could not work out what animal it was. Was it a tigers eyes? Was it an owls eyes? I could not work it out.

When I finished the session Kate went over what came up. She said “The angry bear is back!”. “Ah” I thought “It was a bears eyes”.

Kate then went on to explain that spirit had told her my old controlling ways were creeping back in and that I should aim to be like the fish ie go with the flow, rather than trying to push and fight like the bear.

It actually made sense to me. After the healing retreat in December, I had let go of a lot. One major bug bear was that Jason would not do his expense claim form for work and, if he didn’t do it within three months, he would lose the claim ie just like ripping up money and throwing it in the toilet. I could not do it for him as it was in an internal system. I would remind. I would write notes. I would complain. After the retreat I stopped it all. It still irritated me but I let it go… somewhat… until recently when it started pissing me off again.

I started reminding again and wrote a note on the kitchen bench. The issue is that Jason does not like to be told. His immediate reaction to being told is to do the opposite. Being told can be any form, even a note left for him. On the other hand, he is forgetful so, if you don’t tell him he forgets. Catch bloody 22 there! Drives me nuts!

So after the session with Kate I came home and ripped the reminder note up. It hadn’t done any good anyway. Kate reminded me that money is just an energy and pushing won’t bring it to you. It honestly was not the money but just the stupidity of throwing money away that annoyed me.

I then decided to ask Michelle on Thursday if she could clear the energy of control. Michelle gets rid of unwanted food allergens or energies by doing weird stuff while you hold a vial with the energy of offending item etc). I explained my dilemma. What spirit had said re bear or fish while with Kate but my complete annoyance with Jason and what I was doing which was hard to stop. I asked her how I would let it go.

Before I arrived and without any knowledge of the issue, Michelle had already pre-tested some vials, not surprisingly, one was letting go. She created another for control. She asked if Jason was a Leo star sign. I had never looked it up, so we looked together. She was spot on. Apparently Leo’s HATE being told what to do. Just my luck to be partnered with a forgetful Leo.

The energy of control and letting go was cleared or allowed (or whatever she does). I did feel better. Then, without warning or me asking, Jason let me know that he had completed his expenses this morning!!!

OMG, make the space energetically and it happens.

So now I am a fish, going where the water takes me!

Being a bear sucks!