*Progress *Intuition *Spirituality - Surrender / Letting Go / Trust / Gratitude
I’m sure this is a repeat. I know I’ve been here before. No evidence yet of healing, in fact, my new specialist thinks the condition is progressing quite rapidly and he was intimating that I take it easy and not work anymore. This was not what I wanted to hear. He is also suggesting I take a drug that I was not keen on taking (wanting me to start it in December after I get back from holidays). This is also not what I had envisaged. I have noticed things changing. More bodily stiffness/soreness and the mouth tightening is noticeable. So much so that I could get a medical exemption from BJ’s (positive or negative, i’ll let you decide). So on the currently manifested side, things don’t look so great.
Now I’ll turn to the “about to manifest side”. Every card I draw is about finishing of a cycle; auspicious signs; healing; fulfilment of dreams and a big emphasis on surrender and letting go. I am showing a friend Michelle all the cards, so much so that this is the response I now get at the unadulterated positivity: 🤮
Last Saturday was a full moon. I wanted to go to a full moon ceremony, where you write things you want to leave your experience in one list and things you want to come into your experience in another list. You then burn the list and it somehow helps it to manifest. It’s apparently quite powerful as there is a circle of a number of people’s intentions which helps amplify them. Unfortunately, the ceremony was cancelled a few hours before it was to begin. I thought about it and decided I would hold my own moon ceremony with one person. I thought about dragging Tim and Jason onto the driveway to participate (to create the circle) but felt their eye rolling energy would distort the intentions being projected. I left them inside and headed onto the driveway with my two pieces of paper… the duly completed lists, and I set them on fire. After a few matches, and ensuring all paper was burned, I headed back in. I decided to draw a card and asked spirit to show me a card that would tell me if what I had just done would help my wishes to manifest. I drew this card from Kuan Yin Oracle Cards:
“Blessing of the Moon Maiden
The Moon Maiden, with her Lucky Hare, brings auspicious tidings of prosperity and abundance to you now. The Universe seeks to replenish, restore and create through you. Allow yourself to receive beyond what you thought is possible by opening your heart with gratitude now. Let the blessings of good fortune from the beloved Maiden of the Moon, Kuan Yin, flow easily into your life now….. If you have been through a challenging cycle…..this oracle indicates that the tide is changing…
Take a few moments to consider the area in your life where you would like growth, healing and abundance….. articulate and perhaps write down three negative beliefs…..then consider three positive situations that you would like to experience and write them down.”
The rest of this cards particular moon ceremony was different. No fire was suggested but rather visualisation.
I could not have asked for a more perfect card, it was basically what I had just done 5 minutes earlier. Even the fact that she has a rabbit like me made me smile.
During my session with Kate last week she channelled information that was accurate. Although I have been on this journey for some time and have followed the breadcrumbs, it has always been on my terms. I have not wanted to surrender wholly and Trust God / Universe. Kate gave me a little prayer which she uses many times a day “God, change me into one who knows how to surrender and can easily surrender”.
I have therefore decided to not be resistant to the medication the doctor wants me to take. If it is the right thing for me then the medication will be made available to me at the right time. I feel the resistance to this has been swept away. I am not just saying the words with gritted teeth but I now honestly feel no resistance. It is true that it was not the path I thought I would take but I don’t get the script here. I also don’t get to decide how God shows up to help me.
There are many more areas of resistance that I am working on surrendering now. I will be like a leaf on a stream, taking me where the water flows.
I Trust.
I Let Go.
I Surrender!