*Spirituality *Purpose - Change is Nigh
I’m relaxing a lot lately. I know this process is closing off soon. I’m enjoying my meditations and am still going to see practitioners but I’m also enjoying things like watching movies and not thinking about spirituality as well. On Sunday I was laying on the lounge watching a movie. It was an Adam Sandler movie about basketball. Jason was watching as well, although I did look over and notice he was asleep at one stage. After the movie ended I said “I liked that movie did you sleep through it?” to which he replied “I fell asleep for a bit in the middle”. He then continued on saying “Seen one, seen them all”. I replied “Well I thought it was good, I think it was based on a true story”. Jason looked at me like I was a moron and barked “What are you talking about?”. I was confused and said “The movie, I think it was based on a true story because, in the credits, it was saying xxx person played himself”. Jason looked exasperated and barked louder “Seriously what are you on about?”.
I was getting a bit frustrated at being barked and being looked at like I was an idiot and so I barked back, pointing enthusiastically in the direction of the TV saying loudly “THE MOVIE!!!”.
The penny dropped for Jason. Truth was, we had watched two movies that day, one at the movie and one on the lounge. Jason had fallen asleep through the whole movie on the lounge and thought I was referring to “Jurassic World Dominion” watched earlier in the day.
Now him looking at me like I was a moron made a lot more sense. I mean, he has me running about talking to Angels and God… that’s bad enough… now he thinks I believe that Jurassic movies are real. I wonder if he was thinking “I’ve got to call the men in white coats very soon”.
Apart from the movies, meditation has been my saviour. I can now feel energy pouring off the back of my body. This is something new so I started to think about it. I remember my mums friend Barbara talking to me about Chakra’s when I first went through the awakening in 2013. I recalled that she said there were 7 Chakras and they open at the front first but they are harder to open at the back. I had a though “Maybe my back Chakra’s are opening up.” I did a little research and found a blog by spiritualhealth.com which was quoting Wendy De Rosa made a lot of sense to what I am feeling lately so I believe my back Chakras are opening.
“The root chakra is about survival, safety, and trust, but when you lean into the back side, it’s about receiving and abundance—the ability to feel safe and grounded here in the physical world.”
“For the sacral chakra, the front is about sexuality, creativity, and emotions, while the back side is about trusting the flow of life.”
“The front of the solar plexus chakra is about identity and taking action in the world, and the back is about confidence—the ability to feel that we are backed by Source and grace so we can manifest our true calling in the world.”
“The heart chakra is about kindness and compassion, and the back is about self-love and hearing our heart’s true calling.”
“The throat chakra’s front side is about expression, while the back side is about deeply intuitive listening.”
“The front of our third eye chakra is about thoughts, imagination, and wisdom, while the back side is where clairvoyance comes in.”
“The crown chakra—which sits right above our head—doesn’t have a front and back side. This chakra is about faith, divinity, and infinite potential.”
I am mostly allowing the whole process to unfold but I still do have a few thoughts like “Why am I still unwell, considering all I have been doing?”. These thoughts are not all consuming. There is no desperation in them, they are really just a curiosity. I drew a card with this energy in mind from the Kali Oracle I mentioned one line of this card last week in another post, this is the rest of the relevant text:
“To hold space in the liminal or between times when something is no longer, and the superior evolution (beyond a mere replacement) is yet to be, requires wisdom and courage. Inner processes need to take place beneath a cover of darkness, privacy and sanctuary…. Allow for the divine feminine wisdom of the soul to do what it does so well - provide the method and process for healing transformations…. Nitya Kali’s message is to give yourself time and space to truly let go, as this ending is divinely intended. You shall receive abundant blessings that will more than replace any loss or suffering you have experienced through the conclusion of a life phase….You are invited to allow it to find its completion naturally, rather than trying to rush it to an ending. Often, before a time of significant fruition, there is a period when nothing much seems to be happening. You are attending to your inner work and strengthening your vision and intention, but where is the evidence and result of your hard work? It is building within the soul, just as powerful energies build unseen within the seed, ready to spring forth with unexpected and astonishing strength and vibrancy when the time is right. Let go of force, but do not give in to despair or a feeling of defeat. Any cycle of holding back or lack of external support for your inner work will end, followed by a new era of divinely mandated manifestation”.
So I will continue to meditate and listen to my mantras that drive the family crazy. I will allow the unfolding to be in perfect divine timing…